Soapbox

I certainly hope what I going to write doesn't upset anyone, but  this also is part of a stroke! Do you know how many times I have heard it's going to get better? Many times I have believed it, but more often I think to myself sure? I truly believe the Lord has a time allotted for each of us, obviously there was something that I needed to complete on this earth? If there wasn't I wouldn't be writing at this time! It is really hard and difficult to hold on to hope! I think it is arrogant of people to think that they can  or want someone to get better that their love, caring, and hope can make someone better? I have it better than some I know! At least I can sit in a chair, get up and move somewhat. I would think it would be the same for someone that had been in an accident, been shot, cancer, born with disabilities? That the days cam be long and never-ending. My view for the world is out my living room window.  This way of life, for me, makes you wonder about the meaning of  words like, living, life. and being alive. Sometimes I think , maybe, that people should just let you be and fall into the abyss that a person might seek? Yes, my opinion could change on this tomorrow, and more than likely will! The beginning of the day you could see a silver lining but by the end of the day it has become completely dark again with no hope? OK I'm stepping down off the soapbox now! On with the story!
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