Movin On UP

  Before I move away from the mind I think it would have been easier if the depession had been dealt with early in the recovery! I started concentrating really hard on my physical theraphy. I don't remember when   I had starting getting a little movement in my left leg. I was so happy about this small progress. Joy and Kelly then started working with getting me up trying to "walk" Something that used to be so automatic. Walking had become a nightmare! I can now understand why a child goes thru the terrible two's To want to do something so bad and not quite sure how to walk? I remember we had started going back into the room where the "round table" was held. But when I  went to the room this time they had parrallel bars set up in the room. In the room there was also a machine set up to simulate walking.  I had to conquer the parrallel bars before the machine. We would spend many days at the bars and on the mats before my chance at the machine!Balance was a big issue along with the strength and endurance in my left leg. You might think it should have been just a mind over matter situation? It wasn't that I did not have the desire or want to walk! I just could not make  my legs work.


     Getting to a sitting postion proved to be a difficult task. Trying to figure out how to get the paralyzed arm and leg to move with the rest of your body proved to be daunting! It seemed I tried a million times before I could get the whole body to work together! It didn't take but a couple of times to realize the conquences of not getting the arm and leg to go with you. If you didn't get the arm to go with you it felt as if you were ripping your arm off. The pain needless to say was unbearable!